Me, Mine, My Mind.

1. I'm shutting down.
Do you ever think of the possibilities of someone you love could get into a mental hospital? I just can't stop thinking of this recently. I can't stop thinking what if I check into a hospital and end up my life staying there? It's not that I've any major problems except studies. I'm not under big pressure either. At least not now. I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't feel like going out anymore. I don't feel like talking to people anymore. Yes. Even to my family. I barely step out of my room or get off from the bed unless I need to eat or bath or  pee or poo. Maybe one day, I'd go insane. Who knows? :P

Gosh I sound so creepy. Just to inform you guys don't be shock if you know I'm committed into a mental hospital kay.


2. Addictions.
Movie and dramas are like drugs. Once you start, you can't stop. I spending two sleepless night watching mystery and suspense movies and dramas. I rather curling up in the blanket, watching  psychological thrillers, guessing who is the killer, what is he/she going to do next than going out or having fun.

I want to watch them all. I'm watching The Silence of the Lambs. Anthony Hopkins is the greatest actor. It's still cool when you know it's only acting. 


3. Weight gain? Weight loss?
Just so you know, I'm gaining weight lately 'cause I think I'll be having lots of chance to loss weight after I leave here. So why not starting eating more now? Penang is the heaven of food kay.


4. Glad that I've a blog.
I start to feel grateful that I've a blog. I can writing anything here I want (as long as it's not against the law) without being afraid of people judging me. You know what I mean right? It's not that I've thousands of visit everyday lol. I don't have to impress my readers. At least I can express myself and improve my writing. My blog is so going to be my very best friend. Pathetic. But it's a good start as I don't usually tell people things. I'm not used to express myself in front of people. I never drop any tears in front of people. Well, I just did 2 days ago for the first time. Not a good one. I hate to let people see the weaker side of me. I've a high sense of pride since I was very young. I'm still learning.


5. Passing by.


Do you realise how many people just pass throughout your lifetime? Some of them were once your close friends but after a few years things change. Not everyone you treasured is meant to be in your life permanently. They were only there for a time being.  They may now be in your life now but, at least they were when you needed them to be. 

Do me a favor. This photo looks better in #1 or #2?

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